Constancy in his Eyes

I   think  again in the midst  of  my adolescence a   thought  so  familiar  that i tend to   get  scared  of  loosing  it  in the paths  of this  world  .These trails beckon   me   from every  corner  of their  wealth  to  come  forth  and  get  scuffled  with their  richness .

I have  friends today ,  some  of them are  gone , gone  to make their existence in  life  more  deserving 

 some of them   have  been taken away  by  mere  coincidence, they  reside in me   through memories 

 and the rest  are  just counterfeits  in the  picture  of   reality .

There is  a   being  out there , far away from me ,  in my thoughts 

 I think of him as soon as nature  creates  something   in me 

 I am  a creation 

 Its easy to   write  for  him  as   i string  letters into words  to   lines .

but i treasure  him in the recognition that we  do not know  how  long  we  shall  have  each other and   yet  their  will be   a   him   in me always  like today .

 I have memories of him  around me , looking   at me  with eyes  penetrating  into mine , lips  touching  mine 

 it was  a  wanted  touch ,

 As  we sat   together in a corner  of a  great  dome , there was  an  excitement 

a  hesitance , a satisfaction unfulfilled

a  smile 

and then  quietly my arm touched  him with  

 silence....................................................

.............................a  moist kiss  with tastes  mingling  to search  for  something  long  found  cast  upon  us  a  uniqueness.

i   will remember that

 

I  make you in my   most truest  of passions 

 I have  you  whenever i  am 

me 

   It   is  an indulgence  to be  with you 

  we  are  like petals of  infancy waiting to bloom  in  the spring  of  our lives .

 what was it  that led  me  towards  you  so   fast ?

 there was a conscience  behind working  to   impose  what  it felt was  right , but  there was it again 

 the same  feeling 

 the same dream 

 the same  shape 

there were other ways  for my heart  to lead but it  stumbled  upon   You  and  we  created  a  mystery .

 would  you be  with me ?

there  are people  who want you 

who have you

who  will love   you as differently as i  do 

i  may  hate them  for having  you  so  close  but this thought  will make  everything  askew 

i  have  faith  in you 

 somethings  are unsaid 

 let them remain  that way... they Will be true 

 like  you .

  There are times  when  i get brainwashed  by  conditions  and living   looks  like a carcass . Your  words reach  like a ray  to calm me .

 I change  when i speak  with you 

 there is  a dream   i have 

 its an enigma  that i own 

 but   know this, my love 

 i  dream  about you in my dreams 

i cherish  what  you gave  me 

what you took away  from me 

 my heart .

I pretend 

I fake 

 I lie 

 I am a hypocrite 

I am  not rattled about   it , it exists  in the whole kind 

But  you fill  up the distance inside me  with a  purity so painless

....................................yeah , that's the feeling  you give me .!

In  words there  is  your name 

 but in between them  there is  silence 

 you are my  silence .

 I Adore you 

I melt   with  your song and   recite  them  when you aren't there.

Its innocence you give me 

 I have never felt Like  this  before  .

hey .. you're  sweet 

i love you

P.S.- for you